I can't believe this much time has gone by without you here. People always say that time will help, but I don't believe that. The more time that goes on, the worse it gets. I have to keep going on without you. I have to live every day with out you in it, and it's not right. This wasn't how everything was supposed to happen....but now it's been almost five months and it feels like what's left of you is just slipping away.
I can't even walk by the "Boy's Section" of the store without tearing up. I just want my Son back. I want to remember you, and not remember how sick you were or how you suffered, but I can't. I think of you and I go back to that moment everyday. You were the best part of me, and now I've lost that. I keep myself going for your baby sister. We talk about you every day, and she looks at your pictures and says your name.
I guess for now I just have to keep doing whatever I have to to survive life without you. We all love and miss you so much....
